I had a really hard time writing this post to best illustrate my feelings, so bear with me. Get ready for a long and personal post friends.
Here’s the quick truth: it’s impossible to get motivated to do something when you feel it takes you away from your baby. So things around here are going to change.
I’ve been trying to produce quality content while running the etsy shop and spending time with our squirrelly baby, but it’s been very hard physically and emotionally. When I think about my other friends on maternity leave, and the fact that we, as Canadians, are entitled to a full year off work to devote to our children, I began to resent the fact that I don’t. Every time I pass him off so I can work I hate the blog a little more. So I need to stop what makes me angry and do more of what I love.
This blog is such a huge part of me, so I can’t completely stop. I just don’t want to post because I feel I have to. I want to get back to the reason why I started blogging in the first place – because I’m excited to share.
I’ll no longer post on a MWF schedule, and I won’t post round ups or any non original content. Instead, I will post original content on a schedule that suits Rhys and I best. It may be once or twice a week, or once or twice a month. Just know that when I do post, it will be filled with excitement and love because it’s something that didn’t unnecessarily take me away from my most important job – being a mom.
I hope you understand. I truly look forward to this change, the freedom it will bring, and the projects I will create and share with you all.
This is it, Christmas Eve! And my last day on Squirrelly Minds for 2015.
It’s been an incredible year with squirrelly baby coming into our lives. I’m going to take a few weeks off to truly enjoy this time with our family. They’re only small once.
Wishing you and yours a beautiful holiday season and an incredible 2016!
See you then.
If you follow me on Instagram, then you’ve seen plenty of feet and outfit shots of baby Rhys. It’s taken me a little longer to share him with you here on the blog, but here he is, the love of my life.
Our beautiful baby joined us on September 13th at 2:59pm at a whopping 9lb5oz. Wahoo! He is now 5 weeks and a day old. How a month has already flown by I don’t know. It really is true what everyone says about time moving so fast when you have a little one. Even the days also move by so fast, which is funny to think considering they mainly consist of snuggles, diaper changes, feedings, and visits from family and friends.
I’m absolutely in love with motherhood and, specifically, this wondrous little guy who made me a mum. He is such an amazing baby – calm, happy, expressive. Every day is filled with new discoveries, like how he smiles when I tickle his cheek, or how he loves to be held against my chest so he can observe the world around him.
The word love just isn’t enough to describe how I feel for him. When he looks up at me and I gaze into his deep blue eyes, the rest of the world falls away. His little facial expressions and murmurs fill me with an immense joy I can’t even fathom, and every time I look at him my heart bursts with a love that rivals that of the greatest love stories of all history.
I truly am the luckiest person in the world to have him in my life.