Raise your hand if you’ve ever been faced with complete self doubt – feeling like you’re at a stand still, believing you’ve done all you can, wondering whether all you’re doing is just a waste of time and effort, and debating whether you should just throw in the towel and call it quits.
I’d have to raise both hands.
I’m going to be real with you guys, because I don’t want you to think my life is all fringe, glitter, and fluffy kitties. The last few months I was going through a real stage of self doubt. I struggled with my choice to cut my teaching hours (and paycheque) to blog more. I felt really unsure about what I was doing with my life, and doubted whether I could really make my dreams become a reality. The thought loomed in the back of my head – just go back to teaching full time, get your benefits, get your pension, put in your 30 years and retire.
But every time I thought of that alternate life I felt caged. The idea of letting my creative side whither because I felt like it wasn’t going anywhere was just stifling. No. I would have to persevere.
And then it happened. Things started to pick up, areas in my life that felt stagnant were being revived, new opportunities were coming, and just yesterday I won the Staples Makeover Contest. But the biggest moment of all has come – I got an e-mail saying I was going to speak at Alt Summit in June.
Yep. This is a big step in the right direction friends, and I am beyond thrilled to be able to experience this – to speak at Alt! I have so much I want to share and can’t wait to meet all the amazing people that make blogging so inspirational.
I can’t confirm what I will be speaking on yet, but right now I can confirm one thing – no matter how down you feel about where you are or where life is going, there is one thing that will keep you going: perseverance. That inner voice of perseverance or courage is what separates you from the rest. Don’t shut it out. Don’t let the inner voice of doubt take over. So long as there’s is a shred of yearning or hope in you, keep going. Things are bound to come into play, and it may be not how you wanted or expected, but life has a way of making things work out.
And if it doesn’t work out today, try again tomorrow.
For me, it was that immediate feeling of being caged I felt with the thought about going back full time to a government job. This kept me going. I knew I couldn’t bare it if I succumbed to practicalities, and that, no matter the struggles and self doubt (more episodes of which are surely to come), this was the path I needed to take.